Changes in Purpose

January 18, 2014 (018)

[UPDATE] As of today, my left ankle still has scar tissue from a type 2 sprain (tearing of the ligament), both knees have 'trauma-induced' damage, a slipped disc in my lower lumbar (5), and I am approximately 175 lbs. I am overweight, (obese by BMI standards) and lack stamina/endurance. These are my obstacle that I am working with.

I recently signed up for the year long Precision Nutrition Lean Eating program. Online Interactive group setting of women (men have their own group) in which we share our experiences via message board threads, we also are given assignments to do daily. Green checks offer a visual incentive to do better when you don't receive one. So far, we are a week in. Surprisingly, it isn't immediate change as far as the diet. They delve into who you are, what makes you tick and where that may stem from. It has been mostly introspection this first week...I hate it. I do too much of that already. I took offense on day 3. I didn't want to do the assignment. I had to come face to face with what was making me fall short, fail. The mirror was just too close. I self medicated my hurt feelings with food...again. We have one more week of this self introspection stuff, I think, and then the actual 'work' begins.

Interestingly enough, they have us logging when we have or haven't exercised and assigned us to perform one 5-minute 'action' each day. The action can be anything, but it must be something that was not part of our original routine and it must be something we can, without a doubt, perform and complete each day. Mine has been taking the time to take my Glucosamine Chondroitin. My knees are feeling 10 times better for it.

In the meantime, I have asked my Coach (Mike) to program my recovery WODs. Mostly core strengthening and conditioning. (Can I say, I and my arse hate the rower right now.) Due to some 12 hours days and more, I didn't complete week one much. I will begin again starting tomorrow. Here is day 1 of the program:

Day 1:

A1. FS @ 30x1 3x 6-8 reps; 60 rest
A2. Strict Pull ups 3x 1.1.1.1.1 ; 10 sec rest b/w reps ; 2 min rest


B1. FRack Lunges 3x8/leg; 60 rest
B2. Ring Rows 3x10-12; 2 min Rest


C1. Back Extension @ 4012, 3x 10-12 reps; 60 sec rest
C2. FLR on Rings 3x 30sec; 60 sec rest


20 Sec Air Dyne Sprint ; 2:40 rest x3
(Progress by 3-5 sec of work each week)

I'll do this one tomorrow morning as I have all the equipment at home...

My biggest goal is choosing my purpose. A common theme I have heard over the last few weeks is 'Purpose'. The 'why'. Why people do and accomplish what they do. It never is anyone else's, it can't be. I lost my sense of purpose. I must find it in the coming weeks.